Trust The Universe

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Have you ever been in a situation where you wanted something badly, but it just didn’t come no matter how much you tried, giving you distress? One of the reasons could be that perhaps you were simply too tense to allow it in, maybe caring about it so much that it created fear of not getting it, unconsciously building a wall of resistance. It’s like when you invite a guest to your house and you really want to see him, waiting for this occasion since a long time, sitting at home prepared and all excited without realising that you kept sending him the wrong address. So then you decide to work on letting go and releasing of the fear, which often helps. The funny part is when the thing you wanted eventually arrives knocking at your door with a big smile, and for whatever reason you are not sure any more if you still want it. Sometimes it simply doesn’t fit to the story you created about it and it doesn’t fulfil the expectation, or sometimes it exceeds your expectations but you realise that you may not be ready for it just yet, so you naturally repel or sabotage it. I don’t know how about you but I’ve been there many times and that made me wonder:
Where all this wanting was coming from at the first place? Why I wasted so much time and energy on thinking or running after things? What could I do so next time I could act more wisely?
The more I experience the more I learn how important it is to observe the thoughts and desires, instead of blindly following their commands. It seems like we have no control over their flow, we can only recognise and see them rising, fading, decreasing, mindfully choosing to act on them or not. I decided to do an experiment and learn over the time, to keep quiet and look at these dynamics instead of falling a victim and a slave of my thoughts and wants. And I must say that it really works, because that way I give myself a chance to hear the deeper voice, directing and guiding me in every situation. It feels like this training allows me to recognise and discover more authentic desires, which I call the desires of the Whole. Instead of distress they bring surrender and trust, because I just somehow know that they are meant to be fulfilled in just a matter of time. Instead of excessive effort they invite enthusiasm and action triggered by inspiration. Instead of expectations they awaken an open curiosity, taking me on ever fresh, creative adventures. Keeping quiet and observing instead of impulsive reacting to every desire helps me to see things more clearly, filling me with immense gratitude when the truth eventually reveals itself. It teaches me that sometimes not getting what I want can be the most beneficial thing that can ever happen to me. It teaches me acceptance and surrender to the power greater than my little mind, which is in delusion that it always knows best. I know that keeping quiet is not easy, being patient without the need of constant action or reaction to thoughts is hard sometimes, but I commit to this practice because I came to realise that it is absolutely necessary for emotional hygiene, inner and outer harmony and general well-being. We have a choice to live life driven by impulses and cravings, fears and suffering coming from the sense of lack or to walk this life with a little bit more mindfulness, peace and integrity. When we let go of the need to control and have the things in a specific way, we open up to the flow of abundance directed by the intelligence higher than anything we could could ever imagine, we open to the true magic of being alive. The choice is yours!

Malwina Stach

Photo by Katrina Kocialkowska